That winter I changed my clothes into something more opaque. When I had finished, I realized
that I now resembled a menhir, the folds of my garments chalky, hard, and salty. Absurd, to walk
the streets of your childhood dressed as a stone.
Unable to view surroundings: smelling nothing—newly fungal—cultivating lichens of nether and
silence. To be completely solid, to bear no brightness or trespasses: no talent for reflecting or
refracting. A simple laying of hands on the shoulders of habitats worn out by touch, with no
transference of heat.
Though no one is watching, an opening in the hedges reveals a gap where entry is possible.
Inside, an entity multiplies, but how can I know this. The broodself is invisible and smells like
before, which is the only way to know that it happened. It crawls out in unknown ways on
unknown legs, identical because there is no other form or sound.
By me, a stag
kept for use
to the soil, speaks
to it tilting
into the ground
heavy ores that
remain with me
The months are
a gift that it gives
to the rooms
where it nests,
a greater hart
growing within it:
the colour of dirt
a friend of mushrooms
its seal encircled
by gentle decay.
with other desires,
of offal and chapters;
a powdered lurking,
Days where meals
are kept raw,
rooms never left,
to and quickly
the weight of
the body held
still in the
This organism a frequent occurrence in the illuminated records, documentation of rotting; though
the state of decomposition transforms between each description, the smell remains largely the
same: only slight variations in the tones of different fruits and flowers, the wood of floors, age of
garments leaked into wardrobes.
A sulking, heat-without-heat rests in rooms where filtered daylight takes on the shape of
someone no longer identified by sight, freckled by lingering epidermis.
The location was noted: it is definitely there; it has already been named.
Called this, its boundaries are wandered with a few amulets that may not be real; its hedges
contemplated: hoping to spot bluffs, some enclosure leading to another to another, exposed by
staring. To be immured is to be mirthless, mannerisms ataxic to prove this.
A silvered spot picked by seeing; tunneling sight thrown as a warning; rake territories with
burrowing, a burial reflected. To meet yourself upon emerging, wordnulled, staring back at you
with a hand clenched full of similar crystals.